There's Something About Susan

Hi friends

It’s been a while.  A long while.  A lot has happened.  Some of you faithful friends and family out there have walked through this with me and some of you might have no idea what I’m talking about.  I’m ok with that.  What you need to know right now is that I’m taking my first few tentative steps away from the rubble, after spending these last few months trying to dig my way out of it.

This year has been… humbling.  If you were watching my life on a hidden camera, I imagine it would play out like one of those awful Ben Stiller movies where everything goes wrong and you leave the theatre mentally wrestling with the definition of comedy.  This is my life.  I have become Ben Stiller.  Like I said, humbling.

At any rate, I’d like to not give this past year another thought if that is alright with you.  I’m knocking the dust off this old blog here to try and focus on some really great things.  You see, I can cast myself into a Ben Stiller movie all day long and that’s all I’d ever be.  I’m choosing to be something better.  It’s hard, and I’m bad at it.  And while I can pin a lot of that struggle to circumstance beyond my control, I have to give my attitude it’s fair share.  And that, friends, is something I do have control over (ish..).

So get out of my face, Ben Stiller.  I am not you!  I am Matthew Wilder.  Or at the very least, I’m one of his background dancers.  I’m going to need to buy some more bedazzled unitards.  And really, who couldn’t use another bedazzled unitard?

As a side note, I’m not really sure what this song is about.  I watched the video like six times in an attempt to find the true meaning behind it, but I keep getting distracted by the killer dance moves and moustaches.  All I really know about this song is that it’s the one that plays in my head.  And now it’s the one playing in yours!  Your welcome.